... to sit with a brew, a peanut butter cheesewedge from Sweet Tooth Delivery and the latest issue of Allure and chill.

Today's post is going to be a bit of a random post today - where I'll sit and have a chat with you and share some thoughts/observations, or just some random words which I attempt to put in some sort of order on here for you. Since starting the blog however many years ago a lot has changed within the blogging community and as much as I love writing on here, working with brands, and interacting with readers and others who share the same passions as me, I hate to say it but I'm finding myself becoming more and more disinterested with this community. I'm starting to find that I'm detaching myself away from this community which at one point I was fully absorbed in.

As I scroll through Twitter and Bloglovin feeds you find more and more posts giving hints and tips on how to grow your following/stats and where I do think this is useful say when it comes to photography hints and tips (the more the merrier), however by indirectly telling people what to write I feel like things like this is taking away the fun of sitting down and writing about the latest lipstick you've bought, or things you want to buy come pay day. Basically stripping the passion and enthusiasm away from blogging. 

Also I can't be arsed with the drama on Twitter which is becoming more and more common - honestly I don't know if it's because of my HR background or my age, I just have better things to do with myself than sit behind a keyboard and type indirect tweets about brands and/or individuals. It's petty and I have a 1001 things I'd rather do with my time and energy - plus would you really go up to someone in the street and say these things to them? Probably not cause you'd get a slap. Also what would happen if your employer saw it? Sometimes all what you need to do is take a step back and look at the bigger picture.

I've had a couple of comments from people asking why posts on here are starting to become few and far between - the simple answer to that is this doesn't pay my mortgage or my bills and it's quite simply a hobby - my passion. My career is HR and when I sit at my desk at work with a to do list the length of my arm or my phone ringing off the hook - I do sit and say to my HR family I want to work in the beauty industry. The reality is - I wouldn't give my career up for the world, and I've slogged my arse off to get where I am today. So if I have to work a 9 hour day sat at my desk, the last thing I want to do is write a post on here, I won't. I'd rather go out for a walk or move away from my desk at lunch instead of feeling pressured to write a post. If my work family or friends and family want to know my thoughts on a product, they'll come and ask me and that also applies to you - if you want my thoughts on something - tweet me or email me.

I think the point I'm trying to get at is that at this moment in time, I don't take blogging seriously - it's a creative outlet for me on my little space of the internet. Am I bothered by figures and stats? Obviously they're nice and I've worked for them, yet this doesn't pay my bills. So if I'd rather go to the gym after work, or collapse on the couch and watch crap on TV, guess what I will and I won't feel guilty about it. If that means I get left behind or forgotten about - crack on, I'll sit and wave. Don't get me wrong, I read blogs constantly, watch YouTube and I'm obsessed with Instagram - but what draws me into reading posts and engaging is when I see people who's passion and obsessions come through. And if you're doing that and it's making you happy - who gives a shit about everything else, cause at the end of the day... it's ok.